Not in that way

And I hate to say I love you
When it's so hard for me
And I hate to say I want you
When you make it so clear
You don't want me

I'd never ask you cause deep down
I'm certain I know what you'd say
You'd say I'm sorry believe me
I love you but not in that way

And I hate to say I need you

I'm so reliant
I'm so dependent
I'm such a fool

When you're not there
I find myself singing the blues

Can't bear
Can't face the truth

You will never know that feeling
You will never see through these eyes

I'd never ask you

'Cause deep down I'm certain I know what you'd say
You'd say I'm sorry
Believe me
I love you

But not in that way

You'd say I'm sorry
Believe me
I love you
But not in that way

Not very wise

To know things you are not suppose to.
To listen to emo music when you don't feel good.
To see things you shouldn't.
To listen to things you shouldn't.

Need a wakeup call.

Am I worth just like that?

Stupid.

Dear Cherry,

Whenever I see Sheena I see you in her and that sadness seeps in a little once again.
That smile you both have....

Be safe wherever you are.
Dearly missed by me :')

Xoxo

Counting down...

10 MORE DAYS TO BANGKOK!
HOMG so fucking excited.

Always wanted to go Bangkok for a damnnnnn long time but never got around to doing it.
Friends would always go "WHAT?! You've never been to Bangkok?!?!?!?!"

So yeah. I'm going this time bitches!!!
*Inserts video of random guy in shades shooting rounds everywhere with 2 machine guns*

Finally got down to taking leaves, purchasing air tickets and booking accomodation with Winson and Pangsai.

May be too early to say, but I'm not that excited for the shopping cause I'm pretty broke this 2 months.
But but but.
Like I say, don't say too early yo.

BANGKOK BABY 8)

Everybody deserves to be loved.

Am I an exception?

#maybe

It's not that I don't want to do it,
I just hate to clear shits that others created.

Haven't been blogging for so long.
Not as if I've blogged properly, my posts are all just words and they all seemed sad every time.
What has gotten into me?
I used to be full of energy and just so happy,
these days I'm just tired and I seemed to have lost all the "weeeee" Yeahhhhh" "wooohoooo" in me..

So have I actually matured more (being more serious) or something else is wrong?

I'm starting to feel I have too much on my plate/I'm biting off more than I can chew.
Or maybe I just need to be more organized.

Work has been piling up and that is not a bad thing I would say.
But I just can't stand working with people who abuses their authority, which they don't even deserve in the first place, on me.
It's just so damn annoying....

Bong's wedding is coming soon in September and I sure got loads of things to do because I am one of her sisters and I need to freaking lose fats.

I always look 1.5 times bigger in photos, and I don't want to be forced to untag myself when the photos start coming up on Facebook...

Nothing to blog about already.

I changed my phone. Goodbye 4S, Hello Samsung S5.
I finally straightened my hair, Byebye frizzy & unmanageable & hair that keeps breaking when I comb.

Oh, and I'm seriously running out of exercise apparels. But why are they so expensive?!