Last Kiss

I still remember the look on your face
Lit through the darkness at 1:58
The words that you whispered for just us to know
You told me you loved me so why did you go away, go away

I do recall now the smell of the rain
Fresh on the pavement, I ran off the plane
That July 9th the beat of your heart
It jumps through your shirt, I can still feel your arms
But now I'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss
Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips

I do remember the swing of your step
The life of the party, you're showing off again
And I roll my eyes and then you pulled me in
I'm not much for dancing but for you I did
Because I loved your handshake, meeting my father
I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets
How you'd kiss me when I was in the middle of saying something
There's not a day I don't miss those rude interruptions

And I'll go, sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss
Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips, ohh

So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
And I'll feel you forget me like I use to feel you breathe
And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are
Hope it's nice where you are
And I hope the sun shines and it's a beautiful day
And something reminds you, you wish you had stayed
We can plan for a change in weather and time
I never planned on you changing your mind

So, I'll go, sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss
I never thought we'd have our last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips
Just like our last kiss, forever the name on my lips
Forever the name on my lips, just like our last.

Was reading a blog and this girl had this sentence in her Title post
"You told me you love me, but why did you go away?"

And found it SO familiar. Then I realized it's from this song by Taylor Swift.
I used to listen to it every time when I think of Chihkye.
That's why the lyrics are all stuck in my head.

The song's a heartbreaking one.
Just like how he broke mine.

But it's all in the past now.

I hope it's normal of me to still think of how he broke my heart after 2+ years (very bad with counting days now so was it 2 years plus or no?).

It was a great lesson learnt.
And it changed me to be who I am today.

All my friends and family said I've changed so much after he left me.
I hope it's for the better, though I know some people thought it as a change for the worst.
Let's just say I've grown up.

Life goes on. We fall, pick ourselves up and move on.
The world doesn't stop revolving and changing just cause of how shit you get hit.
Just have to go with the flow...

Ahhhh why such an emo post.
My life is suppose to be awesome right now!

Better blog update the next time.

Byez.

Note: Not loving/missing/thinking about Chihkye. It's the pain he left on me and the scar that will always remind me of what I need to remember. It will not go away.