With so many complications arising from total removal,

Maybe I should just drop this idea and just live my life as it is.

If any mishaps happened due to not going ahead with this op, ill just live my life to the fullest and leave happily.

No?

Choices, risks, decisions.

I'd say its my life I can choose how I want to live it.

But on the other hand, how could I disappoint people who loves me especially my mom?

But with so many complications,

Isn't it better to be dead than struggle with all the health problems that might follow?

Even if I'm alive, I just might be wishing I'd be better off dead.