Dreams

I know I'm not suppose to talk about this anymore because I promised myself a brand new life.
But this dream just put me into another emotional ride once again.

I dreamt of us.
I dreamt of you, standing infront of me while I tried my best to shift my focus and acted like I didn't see you because I didn't know how to react,
and I didn't dare to look into your eyes.
But the strange thing is, I was sitting there and I did not move.
Then you were with your best friend, it's strange I've never met him in real life before but he was just there, beside you. Maybe it's the photo I've seen him that's why.
Then suddenly you just walked over and you grabbed my shoulders, I finally looked into your eyes and tears started forming around mine. You started crying too.
I asked you what do you want?
Then you told me, "I want you back."
Your best friend said, "WHAT?! NO!!"
But you just asked him to stay one side and we just hugged and cried together.
I didn't even bother asking why would you want to come back anymore,
I was just glad you came back to me.

It felt SO real I even asked myself if I was dreaming when I was inside that dream.
The happiness felt so real, I couldn't even believe it was THAT real at that time.
Then my alarm rang, my mind start going into trance,
am I dreaming? But why do I feel so real?
I was shifting in between the mode from dream to finally waking up.

When I opened my eyes, I lied on my bed,
still half dipped in my dreams.
I see myself in my bedroom,
but I still felt what happened in my dreams were so real.
After 10 minutes,
my head was cleared, this was nothing but a dream.

Normally I would never remember dreams so clearly,
but this dream...
it just kept replaying in my mind till now.

Couldn't help it but blogged this down, because I need a channel to vent how I feel.
This frustration, sadness, emptiness after you left.

It's been almost a year,
I don't shed so much tears like how I used to anymore.
But that emptiness in my heart is constantly there,
and my memories of us still haunts me everytime.

I miss you, chihkye.