Feelings

Been feeling very down these few days, have totally no idea what is causing me to feel this way.
Nothing bad happened to me but I just can't help it but feel so upset.

I miss mommy, even though I see her everyday but just felt that we haven't been spending quality time with each other for quite awhile. and everytime I reach home she's always asleep, and the next day when I wake up she's either working or still sleeping. I miss her cooking and making a cup of hot milo for me before I go out for work/tuition in the morning. I want to bring her out to town and looked at the city of Singapore now, but I don't have the time and her legs are not good to tolerate walking too much.

I miss my poly friends, I miss those days when we just hang out and do nothing cause we were broke. All the jokes and laughters and crazy things we did. Now everyone is so busy, with their NS, school and for me, I think I'm one of the busiest person ever too :/

Well, in conclusion, I miss my life as a carefree teenager.

I hate the job I'm having now, I hate all the rushing to school after work and always having bread or Macdonalds as dinner only. I hate being so lazy to pack my room cause when I'm home all I wanna do is rest and stone in my room.

I hate being an adult. I hate to have to plan for my future, I hate to realise that time is running out for people i love especially my parents and uncle because they're getting old.

I'm scared to know what my future is like. Would I be able to get my accounting degree and get a well paying job to support my family? Would I ever find my Mr. Right? Would I have a happy family? How am I gonna handle it if my parents leave me?

Sometimes, living a life is such a chore.
Told myself to look forward and that good things will happen.
But I'm tired.

Maybe all I need is just a little break, a getaway.