Last Kiss

I still remember the look on your face
Lit through the darkness at 1:58
The words that you whispered for just us to know
You told me you loved me so why did you go away, go away

I do recall now the smell of the rain
Fresh on the pavement, I ran off the plane
That July 9th the beat of your heart
It jumps through your shirt, I can still feel your arms
But now I'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss
Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips

I do remember the swing of your step
The life of the party, you're showing off again
And I roll my eyes and then you pulled me in
I'm not much for dancing but for you I did
Because I loved your handshake, meeting my father
I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets
How you'd kiss me when I was in the middle of saying something
There's not a day I don't miss those rude interruptions

And I'll go, sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss
Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips, ohh

So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
And I'll feel you forget me like I use to feel you breathe
And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are
Hope it's nice where you are
And I hope the sun shines and it's a beautiful day
And something reminds you, you wish you had stayed
We can plan for a change in weather and time
I never planned on you changing your mind

So, I'll go, sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss
I never thought we'd have our last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips
Just like our last kiss, forever the name on my lips
Forever the name on my lips, just like our last.

Was reading a blog and this girl had this sentence in her Title post
"You told me you love me, but why did you go away?"

And found it SO familiar. Then I realized it's from this song by Taylor Swift.
I used to listen to it every time when I think of Chihkye.
That's why the lyrics are all stuck in my head.

The song's a heartbreaking one.
Just like how he broke mine.

But it's all in the past now.

I hope it's normal of me to still think of how he broke my heart after 2+ years (very bad with counting days now so was it 2 years plus or no?).

It was a great lesson learnt.
And it changed me to be who I am today.

All my friends and family said I've changed so much after he left me.
I hope it's for the better, though I know some people thought it as a change for the worst.
Let's just say I've grown up.

Life goes on. We fall, pick ourselves up and move on.
The world doesn't stop revolving and changing just cause of how shit you get hit.
Just have to go with the flow...

Ahhhh why such an emo post.
My life is suppose to be awesome right now!

Better blog update the next time.

Byez.

Note: Not loving/missing/thinking about Chihkye. It's the pain he left on me and the scar that will always remind me of what I need to remember. It will not go away.

Hey you.

All the best in your new relationship and I believe she is much more better for you.

;)

& drinking and too many late nights out at Thai pubs ain't good for the body.

Whatever it is. 

I hope your life is better without me.

I hope, you will start having plans for your future, even without me 'pushing' you anymore.

I've been wanting to talk to you but I guess you really hate me to the core. So if you still read my blog, I hope you are doing good.

Don't disappoint your parents.

Peace out.

Whats up

Xiaobai LOVE sent this to me! I miss you!! *Many many love*

Actually I've drafted a long-ass blog post regarding my weight loss journey.. But after some consideration, I decide to leave it there first and not publish it, reasons being:

1. I need more photos from my hard disk! Hardly uses my computer at home anymore.
2. I feel I have more work to do for my body, I'm far far far away from what I want to achieve
3. I've decided to take up a new challenge for myself!

So ya...

My life has been as simple as it could be.
Nothing drama-mama happening, having family times, spending time with friends, and working out.
And also meeting new people :)

Am still waiting for the nerve-wrecking results to be out, then I'll be putting my ass back into studying until late nights after work.
Wonder how would that affect my workouts since I am working out *almost* everyday now. Need to come up with new plans!

Talking about workouts, I've learnt that I am not stretching enough. So hopefully I would be able to be disciplined and incorporate simple stretches into my routine (or before I sleep every night), to stretch my bulky legs :/

It's gonna be a long long weekend! From Thursday to Sunday yo!
Wednesdays, Thursdays already booked with events with friends Imma so excited!
Can't wait to see my Bitches after so long and we're having steamboat at Winson's place!
Not sure what to do with my Friday-Sunday.
Hope to use this weekend and meetup with friends I haven't been seeing in awhile.

Or maybe I should REALLY do a spring cleaning for my room.. It's really getting-out-of-hand.
:(


Oh yeah my leg got burnt by the motor exhaust 2 days ago.. Hurting so bad and it's still oozing out yellowish liquid. Mommy say it might leave a scar!!!!!!!!!!
Haiz. I'm just, stupid/blur/careless beyond words.


Okay nothing much to update.
Ending with a fatty picture of me on my blue Friday in my panda tank. HAHA :D