My colleague said I've put on weight.

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKK :(

I will do something about it after my exams, JUST WAIT

>:(

Isolation

Just so damn bloody happy I am homed, sitting here, listening to radio and blogging.

Past 2 days I was isolated in the hosptal after taking my RAI, and boy it was killing me mentally.
And most of the time I was nausea and feeling hungry because......
I hated the hospital food, it has such a weird smell.
I figured it's the oil they use because it's in ALL their food, no matter lunch or dinner.
I only ate the fruits they gave and chuck the rest of the food into the bin, untouched.
I saw the girl (who was isolated with me cause we are both radioactive) forcing the food down, and the smell of it just makes me want to puke.
So everytime when she eats it, I will have the blanket over my head and wished she'll finish her meal soon.
Sighs I came home and Mom brought me dinner.
But whenever I think of the smell of the hospital food, my stomach churns and I lose my appetite.
Don't think don't think!

I can only probably eat Western now, because Chinese food (especially stir-fry meat and rice) just makes me feel so nausea..

Anyhoo, the RAI didn't give me any side effects.
Supposedly salivary glands will be swollen and have dry mouth but I am fine.
Supposedly you will puke but they gave us anti-nausea pills before that (but my nausea comes from the hospital food). I knew a lady in another room who puked :|

So after being locked up in the room and having the nurses avoid us like we are some deadly virus (there was a nurse who really SIAM-ed me when we were walking back to the room after drinking.)
the nurse came in at 6.15am and took my blood (AGAIN!) but she came in at a good time cause I was still quite drowsy so it didn't hurt that much :p
And did a scan. Had to lie down still and not move at all for 20 minutes. My legs were not straight and when the doctor showed me the X-ray I giggled a little cause I looked funny :p

I don't really understand the films and the doctor is a cover doctor as my in-charge was not available that day so he didn't explain much, just said it looks good for now because the thyroid tissues are in the 'normal' areas where they are suppose to be.
I just see dark spots in my salivary gland, neck, some in my intestines and one chunk at my anus/bladder (cause I haven't excrete them)
but they say need to get my blood test results back to have my 'tumor marker' known so have a better diagnosis.


Anyway I'm seeing my doctor (surgeon actually) next week and I shall ask him more.

Okay I am done here.
Just happy to be back.
But have to keep my distance away from pregnant ladies and children below 5 years old.
And wash my clothes seperately for the next 3 days.

Peiyi be good! It will be over soon.

Thyrogen

Hello.

Today's my 2nd Thyrogen shot and tomorrow will be my first RAI treatment.

What is Thyrogen?
It's just a fucking fucking expensive jab that increases my TSH (thyroid stimulating hormones) to a certain level so that I can proceed to do RAI.

TSH basically increases when your thyroid hormone levels is very low.
Traditionally, thyroid cancer patients stop taking the pills for about 4 weeks after removing their thyroid, to naturally increase their TSH

(In simpler terms, no thyroid hormones in your body, thus your body produces this TSH to 'try to stimulate your body to release thyroid hormones' but we don't have thyroid gland anymore so there's nothing coming out but your body will keep increasing the TSH because there's no hormones!)

Anyway. Using traditional method of weaning yourself off the meds has side effects of making you Hypo,
which I am most afraid of because I have heard from a fellow friend who said it was one of the most miserable period in her life.

Physically you get fat and swollen and achy joints.
Mentally you feel tired, depressed, forgetful and other nonsense.

So the doctor offered my this man-made TSH called Thyrogen which is about $3000+ for 2 bloody shots.
I could take this now because I am covered by my Insurance, for NOW.
Taking this jab does not require me to stop my medications but just 2 days of injection before treatment day.

And my body seemed to not like this;
been feeling nausea and having a throbbing headache.

So I'm gonna stop blogging now cause I think I am going to puke something out,
though my last meal was at 12pm -_-

It always get worse after a nap.

Tomorrow's the day!
Nope, not excited at all.

RAI

RAI on 21 May and doctor has put me on a Low Iodine Diet (LID) for 2 weeks.
He said: No seafood, fish, seaweed (Basically anything that lives in the sea, because apparently things that lives in the sea has high content of iodine).

Why low iodine?

The short-term low-iodine diet is another part of preparing to receive radioactive iodine for papillary or follicular thyroid cancer or one of their variants. 

The diet, recommended by ThyCa Medical Advisors, other thyroid cancer experts, and the American Thyroid Association, increases the effectiveness of the radioactive iodine treatment. 

This diet lasts for about 1 to 2 weeks before your radioiodine, and for about 1 to 2 days afterward. 

This diet reduces your consumption of regular iodine so that when the radioactive iodine is given for treatment, any remaining thyroid cells, including thyroid cancer cells, will be “hungry” for iodine. These cells will then more readily absorb the radioactive iodine, which will eventually destroy them. 

There are slight variations in guidelines from different doctors. The ThyCa diet and guidelines have received input and review by numerous thyroid cancer specialists. 

Source: http://www.thyca.org/pap-fol/lowiodinediet/

Website says: AVOID alot of food.
Doctor says: Just anything that lives in the sea (including Oyster Sauce :( !!!)

Just yesterday (Mother's Day), I felt bad like shit because every restaurants we go to, we have to ask if there's any seafood ingredient in their food.

1) Ajisen (seasoning has slight seafood, CANNOT)
2) Siam Kitchen (70% of dishes are seafood, CANNOT)
3) Dian Xiao Er (Went through the menu scrutinising all the dishes, asking the waitress (this one got oyster sauce? got shrimps? got seafood inside?) and manage to order whatever that's left - Duck, veggies, and sweet and sour pork.
Family added a fish for themselves because the items we ordered just looks SO SAD.

Felt so miserable I don't want to eat in a group anymore from now till my RAI finishes.

We had to eat at Lot1 cause they wanted to go City Chain and buy the pair of watch that costs $864.

Pocket burn-burning-BURNT!

So I totally avoid seafood and cut down the rest that are stated in the website, to make sure my life won't be that miserable for 2 weeks.

Sighs, no protein shake after workout too, so I have to prepare SOME food that I could eat right after gym class so I won't go hungry and faint on my 1-hour ride home after.......

My diet really has to change after removing my thyroid. Which includes,
avoiding Milk, Cheese and Butter for my breakfast (WHICH IS ALL MY FAVOURITE FOR BREAKFAST!!!!!!!!) for the rest of my life if I plan to take my Thyroid pills in the morning when I wake up, unless I wake up 4 hours before my intended wake-up time and just to eat da pills.

And in preparation of RAI... This is my first time getting it and doctor says it will not be the last.

"I'm radioactive, radioactive....."
This song kept replaying in my mind when I think of RAI.
Like "Hey Ma! Look! I'm radioactive!"
Ok lame.
Bye!

My blog seems to be growing into a journey for Thyroid Cancer.

MEHHHHH~

POST-OP WEEK 2

Updates:

Voice is back to the squeaky hoarse voice.
Either I sound like a tranny or I have to sound like a girl trying fucking damn hard to act cute.
The previous time I took about 7-8 weeks to totally recover my voice.
It's only week 2 now and it's improving alot faster than previous,
hopefully I get to recover by week 4!

Surgery this time is alot less painful:
1. I told the anesthesia doctor about my worries as my previous op was a nightmare, especially when the GA was administered and when I woke up. She's alot more experienced so I didn't even remember when I blacked out and when I woke up I didn't feel pain at all.
2. I got 3 small holes this time unlike the 7cm scar previously.

So my wound is pretty much closed now, just that I get very sore and inflamed around my left chest area.
Decided to go back to the gym next Friday for my favourite instructor's Bodypump/CXWorx!
Will take lighter weights this time and start all over again.
Going crazy with all the inactive things that I've been doing.

Oh yeah seeing Radiation doctor next Wednesday.
Let's just kick this cancer in the ass and get it out of my body!

Go go Peiyi!
Hwaitinggggg~ :D

There's many things I want to say... But let's just keep it this way.

Feel.

Here I am waiting, I’ll have to leave soon, why am I holdin’ on
We knew this day would come, we knew it all along
How did it come so fast
This is our last night, but it’s late and I’m tryin’ not to sleep
‘Cuz I know, when I wake I will have to slip away

And when the daylight comes I’ll have to go
But, tonight I’m ‘gonna hold you so close
‘Cuz in the daylight, we’ll be on our own
But, tonight I need to hold you so close

Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa
Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa

Here I am starring, at your perfection in my arms; so beautiful.
The sky is getting bright, the stars are burnin’ out.
Somebody slow it down.
This is way too hard, ‘cuz I know when the sun comes up I will leave
This is my last glance that will soon be memories

I never wanted to stop, because I don’t want to start all over, start all over
I was afraid of the dark, but now it’s all that I want, all that I want, all that I want