Stress

Yeap you got that right.

The time has come and it is time for my exams again. I am in the office now and I'm suppose to study but I am doing ANYTHING but that.

Suddenly felt like giving up and just skip the exam, but I know I have to finish what I started.
Lost my motivation, maybe I'm just running away.

Craving for hot fudge sundae from Mac since last night, but I manage to kick the temptation away,
will it come after me again tonight and I have to fight against it again?

Reduced my training by more than half because I spend the time studying in library.

Anyway I just celebrated my 25th birthday a week ago. Time flies and I am already an adult!
When I was younger, I looked forward to receiving presents and having many exciting celebrations.
Maybe I'm old now,
but just seeing your friends making time to come out and have a meal to celebrate your birthday is more than enough for me, especially so after I found out how disappointed I was when some close friends didn't turn up.

Have so many things planned for 2015,
I am excited for it yet I'm dragging now cause of my freaking exam.
Have to keep telling myself to get it over and done with!

Don't feel very good cause I feel out of shape and weak and restless and tired because I haven't trained as much as I would like to.

Ok I really need to get back to studying.
Let me post a selfie of myself. Realised I haven't been posting photos onto my blog.

1. Lazy
2. I'm not as photogenic as I was before. LOL

Just found out this beauty mode from my S5.
SERIOUSLYYYYY made me look slimmer, now I know why do bloggers or social media users look SO nice in some photos it looked unreal.

And after a few encounters, I have definitely concluded that YOU CAN NEVER BELIEVE WHAT YOU SEE ONLINE.

Okay back to my books.
Oh my hair looks funneh

Not in that way

And I hate to say I love you
When it's so hard for me
And I hate to say I want you
When you make it so clear
You don't want me

I'd never ask you cause deep down
I'm certain I know what you'd say
You'd say I'm sorry believe me
I love you but not in that way

And I hate to say I need you

I'm so reliant
I'm so dependent
I'm such a fool

When you're not there
I find myself singing the blues

Can't bear
Can't face the truth

You will never know that feeling
You will never see through these eyes

I'd never ask you

'Cause deep down I'm certain I know what you'd say
You'd say I'm sorry
Believe me
I love you

But not in that way

You'd say I'm sorry
Believe me
I love you
But not in that way

Not very wise

To know things you are not suppose to.
To listen to emo music when you don't feel good.
To see things you shouldn't.
To listen to things you shouldn't.

Need a wakeup call.

Am I worth just like that?

Stupid.

Dear Cherry,

Whenever I see Sheena I see you in her and that sadness seeps in a little once again.
That smile you both have....

Be safe wherever you are.
Dearly missed by me :')

Xoxo

Counting down...

10 MORE DAYS TO BANGKOK!
HOMG so fucking excited.

Always wanted to go Bangkok for a damnnnnn long time but never got around to doing it.
Friends would always go "WHAT?! You've never been to Bangkok?!?!?!?!"

So yeah. I'm going this time bitches!!!
*Inserts video of random guy in shades shooting rounds everywhere with 2 machine guns*

Finally got down to taking leaves, purchasing air tickets and booking accomodation with Winson and Pangsai.

May be too early to say, but I'm not that excited for the shopping cause I'm pretty broke this 2 months.
But but but.
Like I say, don't say too early yo.

BANGKOK BABY 8)

Everybody deserves to be loved.

Am I an exception?

#maybe

It's not that I don't want to do it,
I just hate to clear shits that others created.