Snippets, my life.

Found an app on iPhone that could upload photos from my phone to blogger conveniently! And since most photos are in my phone (hardly bring camera out), so I just thought I should dedicate this post with many photos taken recently or wayyyyy long time ago, for you know, memories sake.


















Brought a Groupon with Yiru a few months back for this Swiss roll baking class. Cost us $58 each. Was initially really excited until we realised how impatient the teacher was. The class was supposed to start at 7 and ends at 10.30pm.
But the previous class had an overrun and we only managed to start at 7.30pm. And she looked like she's dying to go home and ended us at 10pm. That's like cutting 1 hour off the agreed duration? So in between she was rushing us and did not even let us do it properly. For younger bakers like us, she would just come to our table and do it for us, rushing us to quickly finish up the batter so they could be baked -__-"
Anyway the verdict. Mom and brother said the cream wasn't enough - they gave us whipped cream which I thought was quite gross so I didn't put alot. Whipped cream's okay on my Starbucks but not in my Swiss roll pleaseeee! And I only took a small bite off the whole cake, to taste it. Was too grossed out by the smell cause everything (including me) smelled like a cake. Or more precisely, egg cake (direct translation LOL). Sighs, Groupon mah. What to do? Will try to make one myself at home when I have the time, since I know what's the proper way to do it, especially beating the meringue!

Shit reading this girly book - Where rainbow ends. LOLOL couldn't stop laughing! He said something about his ship people or something require them to read novels, so he just grabbed this (I don't even know where he got it from! Or he specially went to buy.... o.O)

Anyways we were on our way home after the 'Man of Steel' movie and buffet dinner for Jonus birthday. SO full I almost exploded. Even needed the toilet two times in town. Once I even felt like the food came up my throat and slid back down, taste like vomit. SUPER GROSS LA. I hate eating buffets with them because they order like no tomorrow and ALWAYS CANNOT finish one. Sighs.

And forgot to take group photo :/

Hehe my soft toys corner which makes me smile everytime I looked at them. They had quite abit of dust after a long time so I decided to clear them on a weekend and I re-arranged them! Actually, I wanted to buy a bicycle but I have no more space in my room. Everyone's telling me to remove the soft toys and put them in the storeroom/cupboard. But a few years back before I moved to this place, I told myself if I were to ever get a new room and design it myself (Previous room was designed by a designer hired by my parents and my soft toys were all in the cupboard in garbage bags), I will allocate a space just for my soft toys. So I'm going to keep that!

 As for the bicycle, I already have plans to make space for it in my room! Now the thing is, I need to do research! Cause I want a bicycle that can travel further places. Not like the one given to me by my uncle - with basket infront one. It would just remind me of the nightmare when I naively brought it out and cycled to Bukit Timah with Eng Ann and Chee Yau. Ended up they had to pull my bicycle and ride it back home. Cause my legs just couldn't take it anymore. Mountain bike it shall be!

A big parcel of loots from The Tinsel Rack! Bought a total of 5 items which added up to $126 :/ Was abit mortified but I really liked them! 2 Good Girl Flare Skirts (Mint and White), 1 Kidston Button Down Shirt in Pink, 1 Keyhole button chiffon top in White and this Lattice back top in Mint!

Really like Lattice design alot these days. Lazy to take photos of the rest of the items :p

Was packing my albums and I found this! BWAHAHAHA SO FUNNY. I took these photos and sent it to Eng Ann, whom in turned laugh and called me up, and led to a one hour chat on the phone talking about the past and planning to meet up for dinner again since the last time I saw him was..... At NUH after my exams when he got into a bike accident? I am a person who likes to look back at the past and just live in it, and I'm just glad we are still in contact even after 10 years! He even invited me to his wedding dinner when the invitations were very limited! :D

We were so young and innocent and had many of our first. So funnnnnyyyyyy!

Pink Ombre Jacket from TVD! Been searching for it ever since I missed out the item cause I wasn't  by my computer and it was OOS by the time it was at my comment :( Couldn't find it off the forums too, but many months later I found one! So happy! Forgot to roll up the sleeves so it looked baggy. Phil didn't like it cause it's not her style. But I love it! Just maybe not with the skirt in this photo :p

Part of the scrapbook Felicia and team did for me when I was at my last day in SABE. Kimpoh and Darius, the two kids I mentored on different semesters when they were having attachment. Miss them both luh! Kimpoh is the cockster who would make me laugh with the way he talk and the things he say. Darius' that young chaota boy who would listen to my commands everytime hehe.. and of course Felicia, who's always there for me. Aiyoooo I miss everyone!

Mahjong at my place last week. Everyone was so tired they left at 4am. We used to play till sunrise last time. Old bones.............



























Phil was really awesome and nice to draw this for me. HAHA cause she told me to put my slippers like that outside the room when I'm out overseas in Perhentian. Being the most 'pan tang' (superstitious) person in our clique, she drew this to make sure I know how to put it cause I told her I don't understand what she meant over Whatsapp. My friend is so sweet! :')



Finally wore this romper from Love Bonito which I got from their clearance sales last July.
But it failed me. When I was on the plane, one strap snapped off. So I had no choice but to attach it to another buckle, sharing it with another strap. By the time I reached the resort, both just snapped off. AHHH at least it only came off after I reached the resort. Just have to sew them up nicely this time!

I'm considering if I should buy this dress? In black colour that is. Phil said yellow doesn't suit me. This is a size L, but AforArcade only has the black one in Size S and M :( Should I get the M? Scared will be too tight... If not I'm planning to wear it for my brother's graduation next week!

Phil sent me this cause she said it's me. Can't agree more.

Winson sent us this in Whatsapp. all the dumb photos we took when we were in Poly. HAHAHAHAHAHA really good awesome memories. Especially that pose on the couch in the KL hotel.
it's for their issue of 'FPM', instead of 'FHM'.

For Pig Magazine. Great.

Heartbroken

It's been so long since I felt this way. Just couldn't keep my mind off everything.

Like how I screwed up the whole thing cause I was just so damn nervous. 

I'm pretty sure I had no problem reading the passage.

It's just that debate and introduction that I screwed up. I was so nervous I believe I repeated myself a few times. And I did not answer the question accordingly. The guy did not even bother to look at me when I spoke.

Well, at least when I was introducing Shamir they laughed a little. But after that everything just went downhill. I didn't introduce him good enough too. Could I be the reason he got booted out too? If it is I can't feel anymore guilty than that.

I met Yuxin, one of the hopefuls. She's so pretty and nice. And I'm glad I made a friend. She assured me that I'm good enough and maybe we are all just too nervous. 

It really wasn't easy. Chantel spoke so well and she's so pretty, her voice's like music to the ears.

I guess after the interview when we were waiting for the results, everyone kind of know who will get in. Because they were praising one another for speaking so well. 

No one praised me.

So it was pretty expected? But still, I'm so upset.

Went for a jog just now and cleared my mind off this thing. After the interview I just kept thinking about it. Jogging really helps me to de-stress.

But when I came home. I did some floor workouts but I couldn't focus. 

Then I lied face down on the yoga mat,

And I cried.

I couldn't believe it. I would actually cry because of this.

I guess my heart is really really heavy and I needed to release it out.

I kept blaming myself and questioned if I'm really not up for it. Even bro says with my standard, I only stand a 30% chance.

Honest opinions do hurt. But they are real.

But why do they let me go all the way to the management round? It's just baffling.

I never had hopes of getting in when I went on Saturday. But I just passed all the stages and got my hopes up.

And they got dashed on a Sunday morning.

I doubt with my skin I can ever pass skin check again. The lady I met who passed me yesterday was really kind so I think she closed an eye for me.

But I just screw up everything.

I don't know who to talk to. 

I told Phil, Yuxin and my Mom and Bro. they consoled me and encouraged me.

I felt abit better when I receive them.

But after awhile. It just eats into you. 

Again and again.

I don't want to bother them with my repeated rantings and disappointments.

That explains this whole post here.

I just need someone to talk to. But I can be such a nag.

There we go again. I feel like crying.

Leavin'

Leaving for Perhantian in 2 days time.
Yet to pack my stuff - the part I hate the most.
GRRRRR
Planning in my head what to bring, how many to bring, how much to change.
Haven't even change my currencies yet aahhhhHH!!!!

Kickboxing tonight then the Bitches would be over at my place for mahjong.
Totally forgotten we have fish tanks at home now and that the space might be too small for us to play mahjong already.
Sighs suddenly so many things to be reminded of :(

Saturday tuition 4-6pm. After that would be jogging with Ziqi (Promised earlier already).
Then will be heading to Yiru's place as our flight's at 5+am so we would be cabbing down to airport together in the midnight.

HAIYO.
I better start packing tonight before they come for mahjong.

BUSY BUSY BEEEEE MEEEEE~

I am so random.

Age

So over the weekend, I took some time out to clear abit of my wardrobe to give to Xiao Yu, a family friend, who's a volunteer at the poorer side of Batam. 

I contacted her and asked if she knew of any organization which would love to take in preloved clothes and give it to the needy directly as I didn't quite like The Salvation Army's idea of selling them and take the cash to donate - what if nobody buys them? And she told me she can give to them directly as she'll be heading down from 6th - 7th July. So I had to quickly pack the clothes and give it to her on that weekend cause I would not have the time (or rather, my dad's transport) to meet her on the weekdays.

I had alot of Tees as I was working in South Asia that time, as a Service Engineer (Technician laaa dey) so I always buy T-shirts for work. Like 3 for $20 from pushcarts/Bugis street. That explains why my spending was so low during that period cause I don't shop alot :/ Not until I got an office job. HAIZ.

So my wardrobe was basically stuffed with the T-shirts/Jeans and the constant incoming apparels I am still buying :(

SO I CLEARED SOME OF IT!

Filtering them out! My room really needs salvation.


Anyway. In the end I still have alot of t-shirts on hand now because I couldn't bear to give some away - those are with really cute prints and I keep feeling I still wanna wear them.

I am a hoarder. That explains why my room is forever so messy. Cause I never bear to throw them away and keep thinking they'll come in handy in the future. See even my pillow is so old/yellow. I've been using it since young LOL.

ANYWAYYYYYY.
So I was clearing, and I got 2 skater skirts I wanted to give away to my friends (too short for me)
So I whatsapp Phil and asked if she wanted them. She's the only friend I know who wears skater skirts.
She asked me which one. As I felt that taking a photo of the skirt lying on the floor does not bring justice to the pretty skirt, so I went to my old photos and sent her a photo of me wearing it last CNY.

PHIL: When was this?

ME: Last CNY.

PHIL: OMG. WTF (I remembered her saying 'WTF' LOL) I thought 18!

MAJOR :(((((((((((((((((

I changed so much in one year!!!!!!

My skin became duller, my eyes became tired-looking.

And there's just something wrong, though I can't point out what exactly.

We concluded the problem definitely lies in my hair.

I had black hair and shorter fringe previously.

And we both agree I looked more tired now :(

Not funny leh. One year and I looked like I aged for 5 years at least?!

Could be due to my office job - constant staring of the computer the whole day, sitting down.

My previous job required me to move alot, walking from workshop to warehouse, to office, to hospitals. Hardly at the desk staring at the computer.

Maybe?

So she asked me to sleep earlier (Yes working on it now!) and try not to workout so hard.

Because I'm already tired from work on weekdays and I try to do very intense workout at least 4 days a week. 

Example: Insanity, kickboxing, and long distance running.

Not inclusive of my weekly swim.

But I feel uncomfortable when I don't sweat or workout for a day leh :/

Is this a disease?

Obsessed with weightloss.. LOL. But one thing fo' sure. I need to sleep more and stop stressing over when am I going to lose weight!

I asked a friend who is a fitness instructor about weightloss and he told me stress is a factor too. 

So... maybe that's what's blocking me.

BLAH.

Anyways, I dished out more old photos (I don't even consider them 'OLD' actually...) taken just last year January-February.

My my my........

I better do something soon!

I'm thinking of having my hair go black again (After having brown hair for the past 6 months...) cause stupid Barney says my hair colour makes me older. Zzzz. But! They say once you dye it black, you can't do any colour on it anymore unless you bleach it. What if I change my mind a few months later and want a dye job?

Maybe I should just do what I want right now. Consequences shall be faced when it comes.

I doubt I'll be able to be those who age 'gracefully'. I'm not even abit 'graceful' to start with LOL :D

Short rant here - Stupid right knees gave me abit of a problem again after my 10km run 2 days ago.. And stubborn Peiyi did Insanity (Pure Cardio) last night and woke up to knee pains in both side and muscle ache.

I don't think being SORE is good, at ALL. It just means I didn't warmup/cooldown enough?
That's what I heard.

No more intense workout for now.
Time for recovery and low impact ones :D

OMGOMGOMG PERHANTIAN TRIP NEXT WEEK WITH YIRU AND DAVID!
Finally after so much researching for a place to stay, we had no choice but to choose Coral View and we saw on TripAdvisor that they have cockroaches and lizards in the room/toilet
:(
Hope that wouldn't kill my excitement for the search of my sea turtles and baby sharks!
Which I didn't manage to find on my last beach holiday at Redang.

And yaaaaa I'm like the odd one out tagging along with a couple for a beach holiday.
What to do?
Shits happen. I'll just flow with it.

YOLO v('_')v !!

XOXO