May babies

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BITCH! Love ya :D

First up!

Winson's 23rd birthday at Dempsy. Can't remember the name of the restaurant. I only knew that it's so difficult to get around that area without a car! Almost fainted under the hot sun trying to locate a place to eat. The food was not bad, but the weather made me so uncomfortable I kind of lost appetite there. Cakes not very nice also :( But I think I still ate alot leh hehe :p

Then we went to Bugis for the Star Trek movie. 

Gosh it's been damn long since I watched a movie. Been too busy. I want to watch Hangover 3 and Fast and Furious :( Guess it's time to make a trip down to the theatre myself soon. Use to watch movie alone and I find it quite nice, though my friends think I'm crazy. 

Next next next! GAN POH HONG'S 25TH BIRTHDAY!

Haiyo all getting so old already. Can't believe we all knew each other for more than 10 years already!

From young and innocent to.......... LOL!

We all have changed so much, but am so glad our friendship never changed/distanced. All of us are so busy with our lives now but whenever we get together, nothing has changed :)

ANDDDD our Miss Gan's boyfriend had already proposed! Of course say yes la house also buy already hehe. She's gonna be my first good friend who gets married! So excited :DDDD

Anyway we went to Xiaobai's new workplace - Eat.Play.Love to celebrate! It's a casual dining restaurant which has handicrafts for diners who are interested in them. Means you can have a meal there or do some crafts.
It's quite popular with families as the parents can bring their kids there to do crafts while they have a meal there. The menu varieties are quite limited, but their Thai food are pretty good! I had a basil chicken rice I think? And a mango freeze. ZOMG the mangoes are uber fresh! Feel like having one now ~_~ Everyone agreed with me too :D

Waiter Xiaobai!

Love the restaurant. It's very cosy :))

I don't remember what's the name of it! But this is some amazing stuff! You take this film of plastic-looking thing and you draw on it. After you're done you just put them in an oven and it becomes 3D acrylic! But have to draw the image big enough because it will shrink. Ahxian had such a fun time looking at the thing transforming. HAHA it's damn cute xD Some of them drew theirs too small so we couldn't do anything about it :( Actually we planned to make bracelets! So each of us draw something for each other then we put them together on a bracelet. One of a kind! Shall take a photo of it soon.

Love it cause it's for our friendship :)

Group photo before we call it a day

Last but not least my bro's 25th birthday! Always a simple affair every year. Birthday cake with song at 12am, then a dinner with the relatives.

Okay gay enough thanks.

Happy birthday Kor Kor :) My first friend though we fight like no tomorrow when we were much younger. Until now the fights we had still make us laugh whenever we talk about it.

Congrats on getting wonderful results and I believe you'll get married before me LOL.

Sometimes although I feel you don't give a damn about me, I believe you still care for me as a brother.

I hope I'm not too optimistic! 

Please treat me better when you get your job :D

Lost

Maybe it's just never meant to be. 

I don't even remember how many times you said you regretted your decision to be with me.

I looked at Gingy and thought of our sweet memories. But things have turned out this way.

Yes I was a real shitty girlfriend back then because I became very protective of myself because of what Chihkye did to me. I want to love myself more because I don't want to allow myself to be in a spot of losing myself cause of a relationship, I want to be strong.

All my actions took a toll on you and when I decide to change, you have already given up.

So many things, you just kept to yourself, and only bursting all out when you decide to let go. We didn't have proper communication at all. Which led to the breakdown of this relationship.

I guess it's better for you. 

Sorry for everything. You deserve someone better.

I am truly undeserving of your love, time and effort.

I will take care of Ted, Gingy and the 2 pandas who are still wrapped In the bag because you don't allow me to take them out as they'll be dirty.

I guess it's just fate. 

Maybe we just met at the wrong time.

Injured, fat, rants

Just want to rant since I guess no one really come in and read anyway. Don't wanna tweet or write on fb cause I don't want that attention or something.

I'm so upset with myself these few days. Hurt my knees from my 21km run last Friday at sundown, and haven't been exercising since. A week before the run I also stopped exercising as I needed to let my body rest before the run, didn't knew I would hurt myself and after that I can't do anymore cardio. I went swimming 3 days later and couldn't even do breaststroke cause my knees hurt when I kick, ended up doing my half-standard freestyle for only 20laps I think. And kickboxing yesterday was another disappointment, didn't want to aggravate my knees further though it has recovered quite abit. So I was quite slack during the workouts and didn't feel as tired as I normally would cause I know I didn't push myself hard enough. 

Not to mention, of course, no more doing of insanity (which I had great results from) cause it requires a lot of jumping which is very bad for knees.

And my diet has been reallllly bad. I've been snacking on chips and chocs (especially) every time. Worst still I crave for fried/processed food every time as my exams is around the corner so I would keep munching on them when I'm studying. Drinking wise I'm still fine, still sticking to plain water and my green tea (tea bags one). Just the food I really can't. I tried to eat clean like making my own wraps for lunch (plain boiled chicken breast/thighs, lettuce, tomatoes, blueberries, grapes, corns, cheese) and having only wholemeal bread (with peanut butter or ham :/) but I still crave or cookies/cakes/biscuits! I know it's okay to give in to your temptations sometimes, but I think I've been giving in too much.

My tummy is still showing and my arms, legs and calves are so huge. And my butt is so loose omg I really hate myself being like this. Yiru suggests we go gym because it really works? But problem is I hate the gym. So many people, I hate to waste my time idling around waiting for the machine to be available, and I don't want to do the wrong exercise (like last time which made my calves so big).

Sighs. 

Okay this is random but I need to go have dinner and study for my exams on Monday. Bye bloggie

Photos taken today. Look at all the stubborn fats that refuse To go away.

It took me a lot of courage to post this on a blog, I have very low self esteem when it comes to my figure. Most of my friends are skinny and my guy friends are always saying I'm fat. But I want to post this to remind myself I need to stop looking like that. I'm gonna give myself till my birthday to lose more (6kgs?) and get into the shape I want. Bye fatty

MARCH COMPANY TRIP - BATAM TURI BEACH RESORT

Aights, photos from the trip. Nothing much cause the beach is quite dirty. 

Ara, me and Salina 

Our room has this balcony that faces right at the beach. Don't be fooled by the photo, the beach is pretty dirty with tons of seaweeds :/ These shots are like those advertisements whereby they take such clear-looking waters and trick consumers I think :x But it's a very relaxing place, though housekeeping is really not up to standard, the chairs had stains and we have to clean before sitting down. Ara was my roommate and we both would sit there and chat and enjoy the sea breeze and waves :D

Bored. Waiting for their "games" to start. Bed also got stain. Sighs.

LOL our 'old-school' pose. Buddy Buddy eh.

Dinner party was themed "School Days". Most people wear uniforms (real uniforms or act jap school girl uniforms LOL), some just a tee shirt that says "NUS". Wanted to like just wear school tee (My mom threw my school uniform away!!) but the management say not allowed. Bluff one. So I just wore a sweater and skater skirt. Plaited my hair and with a geek specs. Not gonna spend money on such stuff like Salina who goes all the way to Bugis street to buy the 'costumes' Heh.

My company. It was an invite by a company we were working with, so we don't know the people there. Just go cause it's free? LOL

Failed shots. Tryna get a good shot with the very pretty background. Sighs

Was bored after checkout waiting for the assembly time to be up before we head back. So we walked to like this half-done jetty to take a look. The sea there's like so much nicer. But the jetty was under construction so we could only take pics here. The wind was SO damn strong my tee shirt looks so bloated with all the air rushing into it I looked like I got big tummy.

Home Sweet Homed. I love my room. Very cosy, but a little bit too messy. With all the dust, clothes and plastic bags. Need to do spring cleaning soon!

Mask!

Right after posting on my blog a few hours ago that I will take good care of my skin, I'm doing it now!

Just did a face scrub using Cure, followed by Biore's pore strip for nose and some strawberry peeling for other blackhead areas, then Innisfree's Volcanic Clay Mask, then now as I'm typing this on my bed, I'm doing a The Face Shop's Su Hyang Snow sheet mask I bought from Korea 2 years ago. Lol I heard shelf life is 3 years right?! The SuHyang line is my favorite Skincare range cause it really gave me glowy and radiant skin. I only bought one pack (8pcs) of this one (bought alot other series too) that time cause it was TFS best selling item so I thought it'll always be there. Who knew last year June they said it was discontinued already :O So damn sad. I was even thinking of buying all the stuff like serum, night cream and all :( time to search for my next favorite Skincare :(

Oops the torn open wrapper. Heh :p

Masking nowwwwwww!!!!!

Hehe I'm starting to fall in love with this iPad :D

2013

LOL DAFUQ the last time I updated was in 2012??!?!?!?!?!

How time flies.
Reaching half of 2013 already.

Everytime I read other people's blogs, I wish I could blog like them, because whatever you write today, you can come back and take a look a few years later and 'relive' your memories.
I still have my old blog (which I decided to keep private as there was quite a big part of it with me at my lowest point, only a few close friends and boyfriend have it) and I do go back and read it up once in a blue moon, and those memories made me smile a little (talking about memories created when I was still a teenager),
so, with my current deteriorating memory, I guess it's a wise thing to blog more? So I won't forget whatever that had happened to me during my 'prime' years.
Seriously, my memory has been failing me bad, and I mean REAL bad.

I cannot remember anybody's birthday anymore, other than mine and my Mom's.
And whatever that happened for the past 3 months, I don't even remember how I lived it.
Or was it because I am always so busy, and everything's like a routine, that my brain decided to not read and store it.
I don't know how to put it, but.... My memory has been really bad.
My friend even asked me, "How come you can remember everything that happened when you were young, but whatever that happened recently, you can't even remember?". He/She (See I can't even remember who said it) said that because I was telling them about stupid stuff I did when I was young(er)

Sighs.

Okay 2013, since I'm already halfway through it, and it'll be almost impossible to blog about all the interesting stuffs that happened for the past 5 months, I'll just maybe state a few more 'interesting' stuff in point forms? So I can go like "OH YAAA I DID THAT" 3 years down the road.
Errrm but to be able to remember things that happened for the past 5 months, I need to really dig my brain (o.O)

• Passed my Taxation paper, though I failed the Law paper (again!), got 51 marks for Taxation. Hallelujah! :D
• Boyfriend and I had our 1st anniversary on 21 April 2013. We went for a simple movie, "Warm Bodies" at Shaw then dinner at Pique-Nique. He surprised me with a bouquet of blue flowers with a Teddy bear couple in it and also a Sony Walkman, for me to use it when I'm outside running, those that you just hook to your ears, no wires kind. I bought him a Braun Buffel wallet :D It was a simple affair cause he's still studying and we are trying to save money for Perhantian trip this June and also Taiwan trip with my family and cousin this December/next January. So maybe next time, I want Morton's okay baby!! :D~~~ 
• Removed my braces!!!!! It was so weird the first time when the dentist removed the braces. It was abit painful and quite uncomfortable because he was like pulling the brackets which were cemented on my teeth! After it was removed, I felt like there was no teeth, I couldn't feel my teeth at all and it was quite scary. When I rinsed my mouth, it felt like they were gonna drop :O Holy mama so scary! And a side note, I saw some food were like hardened on the brackets when it was removed, so disgusting I don't know how long the food had been there in my mouth LOL! The dentist also didn't file my teeth like what he mentioned a few months back, when I was paying the rest of the money, I asked the nurse about it. She said "Oh if the dentist never say anything means don't need" Errrrm okay can. I kind of miss my braces, I think it actually made me feel younger.
• Talking about looking younger, I realised I am aging SO FAST. Now I don't even want to take a selfie (self shot) anymore cause I look so horrible. I look tired, dull and my skin is just terrible. Could be lazy me haven't been taking care of my skin for MONTHS so it's starting to show. I use to mask every 3 days last time and do my nightly skin routine. During that time I even had people telling me I had very nice skin. Now, no one says that anymore and Phil even mentioned my skin had gotten pretty bad. Pores enlarged and skin is so lifeless now. There was a period of time I did not even remove my makeup and just sleep! And only remove it when I'm bathing the next day. Now I have ugly skin. I need to work on it.
• Scrub, mask, and serums!!!!
• Had a small company trip to Batam in March, was pretty relaxing though the bonding games they planned were stupid and practically nothing to do there. Our room had a balcony which faced the sea and it was reeallllllly awesome! But roomkeeping was damn bad, the mini-fridge had like coke stains which were sticky, bathroom had spiders, and bedsheets had stains! Overall I'm still pretty cool with it cause it's free? HAHA and it's on a working day and no leaves deducted (Unlike my previous company PUI! But that time we went Korea, so........).

Okay that'll be all for now. Really I can't remember already. Maybe I can update if I ever remember some. Some random photos below. Uploaded from my iphone, so grainy but MEHHH nevermind!
Shall post other photos next time.

I'm going Genting with my family next week! It's a 3 days 2 nights thing and I'm soooo excited I even dreamt about it LOL. I know I know Genting only ma. But it's with my family and I'm so gonna enjoy the time spent with them :))

June I'm going Batam with Tooties!
July I'm going Perhantian with Yiru, David and boyfriend!

So... time to save money! But I'm still shopping like my Dad owns a bank. TSK!

Super impromptu meetup with the CK62 gang! They damn idiot one lo, Chiuming wrote on FB tagging everyone (like anybody who works there last time, some I don't even know) except ME! Then when they were meeting up they were talking in the groupchat. I was like "You all meeting ah?" after my tuition on Sunday, then Eileen say "Don't act like you don't know leh" Biang I really didn't know about it -_- Then they said "PEIYI LAI YEWTEE" and I'm like okay.... So steady sia me :D
Look at Gary! Getting so fit now! I'm gonna ask him to train me! LOL just kidding.

Family steamboat few days back. Mommy said she feels like eating steamboat so we went grocery shopping. Feels like CNY haha. She even asked if wanna drink red wine. But end up everyone too full to drink.

Sunday breakfast with my family sometime back. Love family times :)

My pufferfish boyfriend.

Boyfriend surprised me with Twelve Cupcakes one of those days! I remember I was saying I really wanna eat their cupcakes but was too lazy to go buy and he came to my office one day and bought it for me! Super pig me ate 3 of it and had ulcer and headache the next few days cause too heaty for me -_- But still thank you baby MUACK MUACKSSSS :D

At my Uncle's wedding lunch. Am happy he found a new love, but I still think my Aunty's the best even though she had gone to Heaven.

The blue bouquet baby bought for me during our 1st year anniversary. :D

Nando's for lunch with my colleagues. Super yummy! But carbo overload. Zzzz

Bryan's birthday dinner! The cutest baby I've met in my whole life! I never really like babies until I met him! He hardly cries and is always so happy! Has big eyes and verrrryyyy chubby cheeks :))



Some random OOTD. HAHA pink pullover from Bugis which boyfriend paid for me and a skater skirt. Step one young only :D

There's no ugly women, just lazy ones

This photo was taken in October 2011, when I was around my slimmest.

I was 54kg, I lost 6kg from 60 to 54kg in 5 months at that time because I started jogging and was watching my diet.

 

But now, I'm back to 60kg, near 61kg.

Maybe it's the muscle gained from all the swimming, jogging and kickboxing, but can't be 7kgs right?!

 

I really need to work hard from now on.
I gained so much weight I look so horrible.

I can see the cheeks from my sight when I smile, my face got rounder, my shorts got tighter and I start feeling restless.

Nope I'm not sensitive or anything, I know it's the truth.

I've been trying to lose weight since I was 15, it's been 8 years. Got a little bit of
results last year and I slacked, now I got it all back.

Jiayou peiyi you can do it!

70% diet, 30% exercise.

I really need to watch my diet,
and start planning for new exercise routines when time and weather doesn't allow me to jog or swim.

Insanity? I just did the Fit Test last night and I'm having muscle sores now. It is so scary, I was so giddy and tired I lost my appetite all the way till next day until I had some food in my mouth :s

Wanted to follow the schedule they give but I guess it's impossible. Shall slowly work my way up.

Hope to have good updates when I have the time to blog next time